So, I think I just made an important self-discovery: This is my safe space. I have such a constant fear of being “just right” at my job and in my real life that I never get a chance to just relax and be a big ole’ screw up.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not against making mistakes in public or being perfect all the time. I just have a problem with it after the fact. I will sit and contemplate about what I could have done differently to the point of absurdity, asking myself, “What could I have done differently?” Sometimes it’s just nice not to have to play clean up after a mistake.
This blog is entirely different. I KNOW this isn’t going to be perfect. As I said before, I treat this as a stream of consciousness type deal. This allows me to just get all of my ideas out, and who cares if they aren’t the best? Who cares if I rush into something? I don’t have this blog to impress people, even though I compulsively check my stats to see how many people have seen my work.
I don’t know why I’m writing this. Honestly, I think it’s important that I leave it though. This can serve as a reminder to myself that this blog is safe. I am allowed to make mistakes. I am allowed to relax. I am allowed to be the real me, and I like that.
Today’s post–now that the feel-good session is over–is once again at the library. I got to the point where I was enjoying what the library was developing into, and I wanted to relax and have a low-key post as I begin to develop more ideas and my “next-steps.” Luckily, even though this is a “Diet Post,” I still think it actually adds quite a bit and is something that I’m quite pleased with.
Like I said, not really anything special, but the addition of the pathway really sets the path apart now. I know, it’s silly, but by connecting the staircase to the library, everything starts to pull together. I know, you’re probably thinking “How can you tie stuff together when you haven’t built anything yet?!”
It makes sense in my head, ok?